brothers

why is it that they boys can go from punching each other one minute to loving and hugging the next? they really do get along really well. they have been in a funk lately. i think that has to do with the bodily explosions (from both ends) that all the boys have had during the last week or so. they are better now, but there is the lingering whining that comes with being sick.

five minutes ago payton was hitting tayte. then payton fell and wanted me to hug him. so i was holding him and tayte decided he needed to be held. so i was holding both of them. payton didn't like that and wanted down, but after i started patting tayte's back payton decided he needed to help. he needed to love on tayte and hug him. i guess payton decides he needs to make up for being ugly and will love on tayte.

i really feel sorry for tayte. he is so much bigger than payton, but payton gets the best of him at least once a day. tayte doesn't liked to be screamed at and payton does it a lot, i think just to aggravate tayte. but, payton will try to be nice. he always wants to help wash tayte's hair, give him a cookie, or anything little like that.

i don't get brothers, they fight and then love. why does there have to be so much fighting?

tara

my grandma

yesterday was a very weird day for me.

i had heard a rumor that my grandma had changed her will before she went to hospice. the whole idea of that put a huge knot in my stomach. i have always known my grandma to be a caring person. she always thought of others, every year i would get a birthday card in the mail before my birthday would arrive. but i never, never, expected anything from my grandma after she died. ok, truth be told i did expect something that she had made, it could have been a quilt, a crocheted tablecloth, or something along that nature. so to get a will in the mail was unsettling. to see my name along with my aunts and uncles made me stop. what made my grandma so concerned that she felt the need to make those changes. i believe that you work hard because that is what you should do, not because you need to leave something for your heirs. i never thought "well one day when my grandma dies..."

my biggest fear is that by her doing this, there is more harm done between family. i don't want anyone else to be angry at me.

but, i also needed this. i needed to know that someone cared that much for me that they felt the need to take care of me. i will be forever grateful to my grandma. not for what she left me, but for the what she did for me. she is the greatest example of what a woman should be, and i am lucky to be able to call her grandma. i am a better person for her being in my life. i have learned many things from my grandma. i hope to be the grandmother to my grandkids that she was to me. i hope when my challenge comes that i can be as selfless as she was. if not i did not fully learn her greatest lesson, compassion.

i love you grandma. i love you for the memories i have with you and for the memories you made with my children.

tara

my 2 worlds collide.

it started with collecting (i have over 200 flair):

most of the flair that i have has some meaning. like the one above. i am omicron. the 15th greek letter. my family gave everyone one a greek name, whether they wanted it or not.

but then i had a friend make one.

it is so cute. i love that logo it is for this really great scrapbook store that i know.

and then i started making flair. this is not the best one but it is the only alamo sign i could find so it had to do.

so my world of blogging and my addiction to facebook have collided.

tara

ps. lee said i can't call him nerdy anymore. he says this takes the cake.

pps. i will be starting my 12 step flair program later.

eye dr round two

i went back to the eye dr. because i couldn't see out of my left eye. that was because he ordered me a -6.5 and should have ordered a -8. how do you get that far off?
plus i had to order a new one for the right eye.

maybe one day i will be able to see straight again.

tara

who needs a pool?

every once in a while the looks on the kids faces will outweigh the mess that is made and i will let chaos ensue. here is chaos at its finest. they had everything they needed: a slide, water and someone to enjoy the fun. it started with bubbles. tayte asked if they were taking a fast bath or slow bath. slow bath means toys. i decided to grab the bubbles, that started the excitement. they played in the bubbles for a while and then tayte got the brilliant idea to slide down. how he got it i am not quite sure, if he fell and then saw the opportunity. i will never know. the tub started 2 inches higher than it was when they finished, but thankfully there was not 2 inches of water on the floor. not sure where that went either. one towel was all it took to clean up. and if i had thought about it sooner i would have thrown it down at the end of the tub and there wouldn't have been anything to clean.

i am a strict mom and expect my kids to act a certain way. but i let them have fun. they took turns without me having to ask. they moved back so as to not get hit. and when i told them they each had one more slide, they took it and stopped. as crazy as this looks it wasn't the worst thing that could have been done.

now only if i had a tub big enough for me to do this.

tara

basketball program night

last night we had baylee's basketball program. panhandle does this thing where each grade is given a night that they preform various basketball skills at one of the varsity games. as luck would have it we got the girls game. i think we always get the girls game. anyway it is the same program year after year just the kids get bigger. this year there was excitement. three kids didn't get basketballs passed out to them. for these kids it was more anxiety than excitement. it just so happened that baylee was one of these kids. the look on his face as he scrambled trying to find a ball. i felt so sorry for him, it is a packed gym especially because the girls are doing well. finally, he got a ball and they could start. he did really well, we were all so proud of him. he really likes basketball, which i am glad because it is an indoor sport. he has improved so much since last year. i guess that is the good thing about the same program, you really get to see their improvement from year to year.

chest pass while side-stepping

figure eight through legs

dribbling down the court to finish

they also moved the ball around their legs, head, and stomach. shot the ball up and caught it. that one always makes me laugh because baylee not wanting to do it wrong or lose his ball, barely throws it in the air.

this year was also easier for lee and i. the other boys actually sat down for the majority of the game. they did run around a little, but it wasn't like years past. which also makes me sad because that means they are growing up.

this is the same face from tayte from year to year. i am sure if i looked back at last years program i could find a picture just like this. he cracks me up.

tara

that's what i get for thinking

a friend of mine gave me one of those $15 giftcard things for bath and body works. i think it is one of those that you get when you spend so much. she ended up with a lot and was not wanting to go back in again so she gave it to me. i walked in planning on getting their 3 for $20 special. as i walked to the back i noticed tubs full of stuff for $3. i put my first selection back and grabbed 5 of the $3 bottles. went to the register to pay and walked out not giving them a penny. these are the big bottles. the ones that usually cost $10-12 bucks. nothing, nada, zilch. this was my night.

and then we went bowling.

payton had my iphone to keep him busy. he did something and it froze up and wouldn't do anything. i went to get the boys some food. as i was walking down the stairs carrying the food i slipped. there were probably 10 steps. luckily i have ninja skills and ski-ed down the stairs managing to save 3 cheese sticks. the hot dog, chips, and other sticks were on the floor. half the ranch dressing was on me and the railing. but i didn't fall on my arse. really who puts stairs in a bowling ally. those shoes are slick. so i sat an pouted about my phone and food all over me. i went to bowl and the lights on the lane quit. i finished my turn and the lights came back on.

i did break 100. i suck at bowling, but i usually have fun so it doesn't matter that i stink.

i didn't break my neck. apparently a lot of people slip like that because the 2 guys at the counter were at my side muey pronto asking if i was ok. did i hurt myself. or else it just looked really ugly.

my iphone is working.

so i guess it wasn't that bad after all. it just stunk while i was in the middle of it.

tara