waiting

i am patiently waiting for lots of things. today, though i am waiting for the blizzard that is about to hit us.

it is hard form me to believe that we are about to be bombarded with snow. the sun has been shining all day, it is warm. yes, every person that has walked in the store today has mentioned the snow. colorado is covered, kansas is blanketed. really it has to run out sometime. i am hoping that it runs out before it hits us. i am also annoyed with the fact that aisd closed school before a single flake fell. really... really. i worked for the district and remember walking to my classes in snow. i am annoyed by that. i hope it snows 2 flakes and then is done.

tara

i have been busy

first of all i can't believe how much time has passed since my last posts. we have been super busy in this house and i just haven't taken the time to post anything.

last weekend i hung out with some friends and had a blast. we spent the entire time scrapping, talking, and just plain having the best time. i really needed to get away and get some scrapping done. rachael was giving me a hard time because i was abandoning my kids. first, i know their father is completely capable of caring for them. so i never worry about them while i am gone. secondly, i spend the entire time surrounded by pictures of them so i am constantly thinking about them. thirdly, i firmly believe that when i get a break like that i come home ready to be more patient with them and therefore a better mother.

i got 27 pages done. that is a lot for me. i was sooooo happy with several of my pages. so here are my favorites. i apoligize the lighting in the room was not the best so these are not the best pictures (one day i will invest in a scanner, but until then these will have to do). i hope you enjoy these pages as much as i do. and yes, some of these pictures are old.

tayte swinging in our backyard. the blue letters were just extras i was trying to use up i saw this idea in a magazine and liked the look.

this photo is lee, baylee, tayte, grandma, and me at the farm a couple of years ago.

baylee's suit(tuxedo as he calls it) for his first communion

baylee drew dad a picture while he was in the hospital. he put on it remember the good times and the picture had the two of them fighting with lightsavers (that is what baylee calls them).

baylee read this and i asked him if i say any of these things. "like everyone of them."

i always wonder what babies and little kids think.

again sorry about the colors it doesn't really do the pages justice.

tara

lee

he is...

• the man i was supposed to fall in love with.
• the one i will spend the rest of my life with.
• the reason my life is complete.
• the father that i want for my children.
• the provider of many things.
• the caring compassionate person that all people should strive to be.
• the man i hope my children become.
• the one who has helped me through many things all these years.

he is one year older.

happy birthday.

i am a better person because i met you 14 years ago today. i love you forever and a day.

tara

when i die....

as time goes on there are things that bug the fire out of me and i want it to be known that there are certain things i don't want.

1. if i should die on the road do not put flowers or crosses on the side of the road. please do not make all my places traveled be referenced by the last spot. that bugs me.
2. do not put rip tara on your car with shoe polish. if you feel the need to put my name on your car (which i hope you don't) at least use some type of vinyl so it isn't on there halfway and washed partly when it rains.
3. also i probably will be scared to death. i don't want to die alone so please be loud and let me know you are there. i hate the quite.

these are the big ones and know this... i will come back and haunt you if you do any of these.

tara

pokemon fever

i thought pokemon died years ago, but i am sadly mistaken. pokemon has taken over this house. it is an obcession that infects all three little boys. it is sad many of them know the names of several of the pokemon.

the other day baylee was telling me something about pokemon. this is what i got:

....evolves......level......i can't believe he isn't evolved yet......that is so crazy....evolves....i need to catch.....and his super powers are....

when i told baylee i didn't understand anything he was saying he looked at me rolled his eyes and then spoooookkkkkeeee veeeeeeerrrrrrrryyyyyy slllllllooooooowwwwwwllllllyyyyyy to his idiot mother and went through the whole thing again. "now do you understand?"

no. but i at least listened like i cared and that is what matters to him, right?

tara

maybe just maybe

i tried pharmacy school-correction, i had thought about pharmacy school. i started the pre-reqs for pharmacy school and decided that chemistry and i were not friends. so i went on to other things.


see how much fun he is having. maybe....

the other day we were at the pharmacy, tayte and his friend mackie were playing pharmacy. for those of you who don't know mackie's dad bought the pharmacy. mark and lee grew up together and have known each other their entire lives, so it is fun that their kids will have a similar experience.

anyway, i hope that maybe one day... maybe one day he will follow in papa's footsteps. he reminds me so much of my dad as it is.

maybe tayte will be a grown man counting pills for real.

and they were counting mints, not pills.

tara

what is the deal?

i don't know what it is. if he hears the water running in he comes. does he feel the need to go in there while i take a bath? does he think i will get lonely and need someone to talk to while i bathe? well tonight i was really in for a surprise.

he decided he would help me get undressed. i have been doing that for a while now and i can handle it on my own. but he insisted he help.

and this is the night my 2 year old undressed me.

didn't see that one coming did you? he kept saying "heppa you." apparently he is more like his daddy than i thought, trying to get my clothes off.

but he did pick them off the floor and put them in the dirty clothes so i was excited about that. and no there are no pictures to document this event in our lives.

tara