Sunday, November 9, 2008

my birthday

today was my birthday. nothing exciting happened. i got calls from lee's mom, grandma, angie, and scott(2 separate calls), rachael (with all her gang chiming in), and amber. i spent most of the day being a bed potato. it was a hard day. not due to my age, but the time of year. again another first. we are getting closer to when these dang firsts are over. lee even asked me if i was depressed. i know i am not. i heard someone say once that the difference between depression and sadness. is that with depression nothing matters and with sadness everything matters. so i am sad and my sadness gets not so sad every day.

when i came home the other day baylee told me he got something he shouldn't have gotten. i was scared to find out what it was. he led me to the kitchen where he handed me a letter. even more nervous i opened it. it was a letter to michael's birthday party. which was today. he was afraid i would be sad if he went somewhere else for my birthday. i lucked out with such a sweet caring kid. so he spent a couple of hours at the birthday party.

we ended the night with family movie night. this is something that we recently started. we all sit down and watch a movie together. i really like it. we are together as a family which is great. i hope this becomes such a family tradition that it stands the test of growing children.



Jennifer said...

I don't have the right words to help your sadness go away. It may never go away completely. The important thing is that you are "getting a little less sad every day". Wishing you more happiness each day. :)