question

i have been watching to see where people are from that read my blog. i can guess and assume that i know who people are by the city. but there is one that i can't figure out. someone from new york, new york keeps checking up on me. i don't want to scare you away i just want to know if i know you. so the next time you check me out new york leave me a message. and if you don't want to that is fine too. but it would be great. thanks.
tara

my eyes

i have lived basically my whole life with terrible vision. i started wearing glasses in kindergarten. i got my first pair of contacts as a freshman, because my parents were finally tired of broken glasses. most of those were due to basketball. yes, i caught the ball. it was all fighting for the ball that resulted in broken glasses.

my glasses to this day are really super thick. even with all the advances with eyeglass technology there are still thick. i have -6.75 vision. i don't know what legally blind is but i really think i am close.

so i have been having problems lately with my eyes. first they were really sensitive to the light, even with my sunglasses on i had to squint. well the reason is i have corneal clouding. my contacts were suffocating my eyes. not letting enough oxygen in. so instead of the regular way light enters your eye, mine was coming in and spreading out. apparently that is not good. so i got new contacts that let in more oxygen.

you would think that all my problems would be solved. no. i was driving home tonight. this was the first day wearing my new contacts and i discovered that if i close my right eye i can't see crap. i can see the speedometer just fine, but anything past that not so much. don't worry if i kept both eyes open i could see fine 20/20 even. so i guess i get to make another visit to the eye doctor.

i'm really considering that lasix thing. but i am nervous. i really need to do my research. until then i will remain a slave to the contact lense. you rarely see me with my glasses, only when my eyes are killing me.

tara

updates

i only have 25oo+ photos on my home computer to tag. apparently when i was backing up it didn't like what i did and untagged most of my photos. i am not complaining because they could have been lost.

i only have 5600+ photos to organize on my passport. i started with 12,000.

then i have to go in and organize all the folders i have made. i am tired of organizing photos.

i got to go to a friend's house on saturday and scrapbook. i didn't have any pictures. that is not they way i work. i had the hardest time making pages that will have a picture later. people do that all the time, but not me. i definitely have to add some more stuff to them when i add photos.

i am addicted to facebook. i know i have mentioned it before, but i seriously get on everytime i check my email. and i check my email regularly throughout the day because of work. i apparently am more of a habit person than i thought. check work email, personal email, check blogs, and then facebook. i know i am a loser, i hear it on a daily basis.

baylee got his progress report for this six weeks. already. it seems like time is in warp speed. poor kid has his dad's handwriting, and the grade proves. other than that and his math grade his lowest grade was a 94. gotta find out what is with the math grade. he had a high 90 something at the end of last semester.

tayte is just being tayte. he had learned how to text people, but doesn't know what he is doing. today he texted lee "tayte." he types his name and pushes send. lee texted him back "hi tayte. i hope you are having a good day." when i told tayte that he looked at me and said, "i just spelled my name and hit the blue button." he has such a dry sense of humor for someone his age. he is going to be funny to watch grow up.

payton knows how to get the wii ready to play. you don't just turn it on and play. you have to change the channel also. i walked in the living room this morning and the wii was ready to go. it was only him and i at home. he is really smart and it scares the dickens out of me. he looks at you and smiles that orny smile, because he has something going on in his head.

lee spends most of his time playing that darn game. i am glad because that was the whole reason for the computer. he puts the headphones on because he doesn't want his boys listening to a war zone. i don't get it. they can see but not hear?

we lead such a boring life sometimes. other times there is not a single minute that is restful. i need more consistency. i think.

tara

to be fair

i constantly say that payton is a difficult child.
he will be the death of me.
he is driving me crazy.

but, he is a caring, thoughtful, and a sweet child. he just has to be in the mood. he is very polite and will say thank you for anything. he will tell you he is sorry if he has done something wrong. he will pick up a toy and give it to his brother. many times he has taken tayte's cup to tayte without being asked.

the other night the boys were in our bed watching tv. payton took his "me" and covered tayte up.

he loves both of his brothers and tries to make sure they are happy.

so as much as i complain about how hard he is, he is just as equally caring and compassionate.

i love that kid. and i am lucky to be his mother, because he is making me a better person each day.

tara

confession

i have a confession to make.

i am a hussy. i hop from one man's bed to the next without a second thought.

in fact, i do this with the blessing of my husband.

for those of you that haven't figured this out yet i mean my boys. last night i slept with tayte. i went in their room to kiss them all good night. as i was getting ready to leave tayte asked if i would sleep with them. i went into my room to grab my favorite blanket and pillow. lee was getting comfy in a bed without me. he didn't even make a fuss. it was several years ago lee did complain.

"why do you always sleep with them when they ask?"

i looked at him and replied, "because one day they won't ask."

after that comment lee doesn't say a word. he even lets all three of the boys in our bed with me and he will sleep in one of their beds.

there are several things that baylee has already quit doing. he is growing up too fast. he is too cool for some things.

but he still asks me to sleep with him. and each time he does i will, because it makes me sad that one day he won't ask. and that day is getting closer, every night.

tara

randoms

apparently i have found that i have several addictions. most of them are harmless. most of them are only funny to me. i have been at the store all night making comments about one of my addictions.

• dr. pepper
• flair on facebook (yes i have joined all other 30 something losers who are on facebook)
• sleep
• checking email, blog, and facebook-a couple of times a day, or maybe and hour.

i also have decided that i have adult add. this is not diagnosed by a dr. i have self diagnosed this and am very sure that i have this. the other thing could be that i am turning in a snarky old woman. i am really to young to be as snarky as i am. i think some of it, or really most of it is, my personality. i don't have the patience for a bunch of stuff. and maybe i should work on that. or maybe not.

another random thing is watching the boys playing wii. i love watching them play. it is so funny to watch them. baylee swings the remote and looks like he is riding a pretend horse. tayte runs in place any time that he has to run with the controllers. payton thinks he can do anything that his brothers can do so he is constantly fighting for a controller. i love it. i am so glad we got the wii. we spend tons of family time on it. santa really knew what he was doing.

tara

that child

many of you have heard me say that payton will be the death of me.

well while we were at grandma's funeral dinner he either fell or when i picked him up he hurt his arm. for the rest of saturday his arm hung by his side.

sunday he slowly started to use it but you could tell he was favoring it.

i called the doctor to make an appointment to have him seen and the stinkbug really starts using his arm.

when she held his arm to look at it, he pulled away. not that hurts kinda pull. a i am fine so i don't want you to touch me pull. we talked about it and she tried to look at it. every detail i gave her made her more convinced that he pulled his elbow out of socket. there was no swelling so she thought no need to do an x-ray. so we left with a kid who was fine. i think it is all part of his master plan to drive me to the funny farm.

this is the second time this has happened. he falls hurts himself and apparently falls again and is better. the doctor says he should grow out of this, i hope he does.

tara